Christian

Josh has met his match.

I really need california today. I miss the beach, the sun, and my friends. I am selfish.

Carry On definitly just put me in a better mood.

If you're the praying type pray for me. I need some patience.

friends only from here out.

God won't burden you with more than you can stand. As much grief and sorrow and pain as I feel right now it is coaxed with a sense of peace and joy. A dear friend of mine was murdered today in a hit and run accident while riding his bike. He left behind a wife and two teenage daughters. He was an amazing encouraging man.



Here he is doing what he did best in the Dominican Republic, Loving people.


1.1.56 - 12.15.03

I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Grandma and her grandaughter.




My girls.




Two of Emily's siblings,my baby and I.

Thank polaroid for the blurriness.

Tomorrow. That's what the doctor said this morning. The anticipation is greater than anything I've ever had to wait for. We've got to get to the hospital before 6:00 am tomorrow. Expect some pictures withen the next few days of our amazing little girl.

Halloween as come and gone and I am still without a child. That kid needs to get the lead out.

We got our new equipment today. I went to St.Louis and picked up the crap and had a little taste of home for lunch. Del Taco. oh damn it was so good.

The doctor thinks that he'd be surprised if Emily doens't have the baby by her next appointment on monday. I'm still shooting for her popping that thing out tomorrow so we can have a halloween baby.

hell yes, I love halloween and I love del taco..

well since I'm in between jobs I figured I should get a part time job. good timing, everyone is starting to hire for seasonal help. I applied at hot topic and they want to interview next week and I got an application to the gap but they aren't going to be hiring for at least three weeks. Jobs suck, well working for other people suck.

I'm so going to get waisted tonight.

I woke up at five this morning. I still don't really know why but somewhere between then and now I remembered the coma eternal LiveJournal. whatthahell.. its probably the most hilarious thing I've seen in a long time. If you like metal you'd like Coma Eternal

read the journal

for my friends that do pray, please do so for me. for those that don't keep my wife and I in your well wishes. we're experiancing a very rough time. maybe someday soon I'll have some kind of explaination for all of what is going on but until then just give me a call if you're intrested or leave me a comment.

life will go on, God is in control.

i cried today.

Normally I don't do these little quizes but I found this one particularly intresting, especially when I entered the name of my friend steve -

masticatus Magic Number 15 Job Computer Nerd Personality Chancer Temperament Check My Pulse Sexual Gay Likely To Win A Home Help Badge Me - In A Word Unique Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

ps. thought i had colon cancer, don't. still have to get surgery on my freaking ass and my work is pissed

Things are moving along so great. The merch business is flying. I'm finally getting back into shows. Tonight its giving up the ghost. Last night I came home from working the show and I found that the desktop of my computer was changed from its normal black and white to a bright yellow with a picture of a cactus wearing a sombrero. It made a great night spectacular.

I know its been a while, longer than it should have been but I love you girl. You'll always be the best friend. You know who you are.

Aside from everything else, if you need merch, anyone.. or know anyone I've started an empire. monster merchandise. we're cheap and quick, kind of like a hooker but no diseases.

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Pronunciation: 'as-"(h)Ol
Function: noun
Date: 14th century
1 usually vulgar : ANUS
2 a usually vulgar : a stupid, incompetent, or detestable person b usually vulgar : a despicable place -- usually used in the phrase asshole of the universe
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The one thing I've always wanted aside from finding her was to be a dad. In about seven months that is going to happen. It's scary as hell and so exciting at the same time. I don't want to be my father and that is probably my biggest fear. I told my dad and all he said was "I told you not to make me a grandfather before I was fiftey and then he walked away from me and slammed the door to his house. I haven't talked to him since but I hear my step mom is excited. Oddly enough too because she is the one who said my marrrige was a joke. I guess she's coming around.

I got to go home for facedown fest and it was so nice to see all the people I didnt get to see and I few I didnt expect to see. I'm sorry if I didnt see you and if I had more time I probably would have. I still miss california and everything in it. Missouri sucks but it is my new home until who knows when. Life will go on and God is in control.

Tonight is Unearth. I've been waiting for this show for two months. The only three cd's I've been listening to for a couple weeks now are the unearth endless cd, the new afi (sing the sorrow), and the new xDisciplexad cd (the revelation). I can't get enough of any of them. I anticipate driving places so I can listen to any one of them. I think I can live without seeing shadows fall tonight though.

Anyway... have to get back to working my life away.

just passing the time at work before clocking in. While I can't wait to go home for a few days, I don't want to leave emily. Maybe it will be good for us... Jeff and I head out on monday night. Facedown fest is going to be awesome. We've got our tickets and everyone and their brother is going. Jeff's never been to california so its going to be all new to him and I look forward to showing him around as much as I can in three days.

For all of the homies in the palm springs area, Would you like to play like its old times and go to street fair.. maybe hit up carls? I'm dying to just be around everyone again. phone numbers is what I need. If you read this comment with your numbers and I'll do the arranging. I miss you all and love you. See you in a week or so.

Being color blind sucks. I can't tell if my socks are the same color.

you type something out and delete it. you decide you'd rather say something else.

We're moving into our house on sunday. Three bedrooms, finished basement and wood floors. I love it. No more prostitutes or drunken retards and that is enough to make me love it. We've got plenty of space so we can have whomever over, whenever (hint, hint). speaking of which.. sinai beach is coming on the 13th and chillen at our place. on the 14th we've having a valentines party and everyone's invited. Thats all I have to / want to say right now. maybe I'll start to write more.. maybe not.

ps. if you didn't see us for christmas, go to facedown fest and we'll be there. you knew we would be.